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m glad to be looking out my
window, watching the clouds
slowly break apart and the clear
blue sky come into view. I haven't
felt this comfortable in my own skin for
a while. The last month or so was tough.
It felt like I was sliding into an abyss after
many months of smooth sailing. I was in
A Room With A View
James May learns to trust the healing power of connecting with his innermost Self.
cruise mode, feeling on top of the world,
invincible. Everything was going my way
and I was in control of my destiny. It's
amazing how fast the tables can turn.
All of a sudden, emotions started rising
up like a volcano, threatening to spill over.
My nerves were on edge, I felt vulnerable
to the core -- I didn't know why. Old fears
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and doubts were resurfacing, like monsters
from the deep, just when I thought they
were dead and buried. I was overcome
with anxiety, feeling stuck, unable to
leave my comfort zone. The weather was
turning and depression was bearing down
upon me like an ogre.
I was besieged by mind chatter each
day telling me I wasn't good enough,
I wasn't capable, I wasn't worthy. After
being inspired and motivated for many
months, I became lethargic, despondent.
Everything was a struggle. I didn't want
anyone to see me this way. All I wanted to
do was curl up and hide.
I felt unsupported by the universe.
Haven't I been through this? Haven't I
suffered enough? I felt worn down, over
it. Gimme a break - let the good times roll!
I spent hours away from home, fossicking
in shops, watching movies, trying to "rise
above" these emotions. The pressure
kept building, leaving me angry, confused,
unable to sleep at night.
It made no sense. Was I jinxed? Unable
to control my emotions? Life was better
than ever, but it felt like I was falling
apart. My days were punctuated with
negativity, insomnia and insecurity. This
turmoil wasn't going anywhere in a hurry;
it was tapping me on the shoulder
demanding attention. I had to look it in
I took another approach to this
"depression" and it was quite sobering.
I waited till I was backed into a corner,
though. I tried to call friends but no one
answered. It felt like I was cut off from
everybody. The universe was telling me
something -- You can deal with this, you
have the resources, the answers lie within.
So I pulled my socks up and marched off
to the park with my diary in hand.
It was cold and gloomy that day. The
sun was tucked behind clouds and the
park was lonesome and misty. There was
no one in sight. Just me and a few birds
swooping down from trees now and then,
catching me off guard. I jumped with fright,
trembling in my boots. It felt like they
were eyeballing me, peering into my soul.
Their high-pitched squawks cut through
me. They knew something I didn't -- that's
how it felt.
I continued on my way, jumping
at shadows now and then. I had been
sleeping very little and felt quite out of
my body, yet in tune with something
intriguing, mysterious. By the time I had
perched by the river, I was overwrought
with anxiety. A storm was building in my
head; I felt foggy, delirious. My body was
tangled in knots, tense all over.
Meditating by the water, I pleaded
for answers. What's going on? What's the
point of all this? I scribbled messages to
the universe asking for guidance, support;
I told myself everything would be okay, I'd
make it through this. I wrote affirmations
like a mantra, reminding myself to be
gentle in spite of the harsh inner critic
taking over, trying to drag me into self
As I slipped into the silence, I became
aware of the same old mind games, the same
old thought patterns -- I was determined
not to play into their hands. Moments
later, something magical happened. The
storm stopped raging in my head, the fog
lifted and things started making sense. I
could see where the "disturbance" was
coming from. Old resentments I hadn't
resolved; fears and doubts associated with
'I had been sleeping very little and felt quite out of my body, yet in
tune with something intriguing, mysterious.'
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